I miss my family

[Omega Bill]

Growing up my life was good, I had a family that loved unconditionally
When I was just 3 years old my life turned a 360 an that was jus a start of misery
I still remember my grandpa gettin up from his rockin chair with a stogie in his mouth

Then one day my family went over there, and he wasnt there and I looked through the house
My eyes filled with tears, and I didnt unstand what happened to this man who was my friend
He was too young to die, and for weeks I would cry, I didnt understand that his life came to an end

It was only 2 years till tragedy struck again, youll see this pattern begin to form in my life
Just 5 years old, and my grandma got cancer, and when she tried to walk it felt like a hot knife
Her hips couldnt support her, and her legs became weakened because of this disease
She had to have a walker cart her around because she couldnt put pressure on her knees

Then one day my family went over, and she wasnt there and I looked through the house
My eyes filled with tears, and I didnt unstand what happened to this woman who was my friend
She was too young to die, and for weeks I would cry, I didnt understand that her life came to an end

2 years again, and this time I was just at the tender age of only 7 years old
When my other grandpa got sick, and I thought it was jus a common cold
I didnt know he had diabetes, cardiac problems, and 3 heart attacks under his belt
And I didnt know how to express this horrible feeling in my gut that I felt
I was older this time, only 7, but I knew what was coming because of the past
And 2 weeks before the Lords Holiday, Christmas, my Papa passed

This time my family went over to clean out the house, and he wasnt there and I still looked through the house
My eyes filled with tears, and I even then I couldnt understand what happened to this man that was my friend
He was too young to die, and for weeks I would cry, Im starting to realize that life must come to an end

We knew for a while that my Aunt contracted cancer, and she was riding a thin line
And I wont stop blaming the doctors that operated to not give her more time
She was a fighting woman, who never backed down, with a heart of pure gold
How could God keep taking people from me, my Aunt was barely over 40 years old

This time again my family went over to clean out the house, and she wasnt there and I still looked through the house
My eyes filled with tears, and I even then I couldnt understand what happened to this woman man that was my friend
She was too young to die, and for weeks I would cry, Im really starting to realize that life must come to an end

A few years later, 3 grandparents down an 1 aunt, my other grandma was staring death in the eye
When I got the news I was so damn used to this plage of misery, my eyes were dry an it was hard to cry
She was always full of energy and never took anything from anybody, always independent
But this time she couldnt fight her way through this time, and the pain God decided to end it

This time again my family went over to clean out the house, and she wasnt there and I still looked through the house
My eyes filled with tears, and now I understand what happened to this woman man that was my friend
She was too young to die, and for weeks I would cry, Now I have nothin to look forward to, cause all life comes to an end

First time I've ever written about this, but its hard to keep emotions inside like that. So..leave feed please. I dropped this in Distilled Concepts cause I dont know to classify this as a poem or something written. Kind of both.

[Haz]

Damn Son.. Damn.. I can Relate like Krazy.. & Last Night i Wus Gunna drop Somethin Similar To Dis
Cause i Kept Replayin Tha "Stan Instrumental"...U Came Real As Fuck In dis Shit Niggah..
Emotion Wus Bizzerk.. The Scheme u Repeated.. Reminded Me of a Poem.. but Dis Could be
Considaed a Written.. Eitha Way.. it Was a Solid Movin Type Piece.. im Finna Drop 1 Ina Lil..
Good Shit .. ( Lookin Forward To Next Drop)

[Omega Bill]

Thanks for the feed man. Like I said to Double Fl a lot of people could relate because as we keep getting older so do our loved ones. I'm looking forward to seeing your drop.

[complexity]

A very intellectual and thought provoking piece.

I am impressed.

"This time my family went over to clean out the house, and he wasnt there and I still looked through the house
My eyes filled with tears, and I even then I couldnt understand what happened to this man that was my friend
He was too young to die, and for weeks I would cry, Im starting to realize that life must come to an end "

Real as hell.

I liked how it was broken down into different sections. This whole entire drop worked pretty well.

The icing on the cake would have been some ill metaphors.

[M.O.B]

man i got goose-bumps n shit.....i can relate too yo my grandma died on
Dec 4, 2004 .... she was the only grandparent i was close to though
neways good shit man

[Arvincible]

well well well, this was outta my expectation from you billy heheh that's a nice unique format to go with.
But real talk this shit was emotionally moving. that's a piece from the heart man and respect for sharing it.

I'm going through some rough times right now also with my mother. so imma drop something for her about it. Good shit though my man.

[Omega Bill]

Thanks for all the feed guys. I appreciate it.

[thaphantom]

Real good drop....yo just keep ya head up...we all go through shit i'm going through some shit in my life right now to though...i might end up droppin some real shit...it can be a poem or a song.....a song ain't nothin but another form of poetry....keep it up

[MesaR]

yeah this was pretty sick dude