In My Strange World (In The Mind Of QwarterZ)

[QwarterZ]

On my daily process of bettering my lyrics and other conquests
I find myself at a turning point, lately work has become hellish
so much pressure was put on me the first week which is troubling
somedays a man just needs to be by himself and thats what I aim for
but lately that could be my downfall quite...possibly? maybe not?
before they gave me the bosses chair I used to walk to work EVERYDAY
that's close to 2 miles going through brush and traffic...for a small town
it seems like things like this wouldn't be troubling, but it is...
lately I feel as though I've sunk into a void where if I'm not at work
I'm out the loop, which may be true...my girl says we drifter apart
and that might be the case...because I don't have time to myself to think
I haven't worked out until recently which was a nice little jog and bench pressing
(I'm kinda small at the same time but either way I try to push more weight
I know this will probably be a question but I have no idea what I bench press so drop it dammit...lulz....*ahem*)
anyway me and my girl nearly broke up over money issues amongst other things
which I didn't have no trouble with until I eventually broke, for me it's hard to trust
which is probably why I just prefer my own solitude, eh, I guess that's life
either way as I've learned work is probably the only place I could actually be...me...
I feel as though at times...I want to leave my girl, and get with the girl I'm working with
but I don't really have much to offer....well....at the time....0_0 either way....
I don't know I always play out random scenarios of the day and the month
tryna portray how everything is going to work out, and inbetween that...I write
which is kind of bothering if I do say so myself, I don't try to emit emotions in my words
although I notice a lot of people take a liking to my Sanity piece, a small piece of me is in that
The Astronaut maybe me, with my own Sanity found home, which doesn't make sense
I hate being home, but small bits and pieces make sense to me, either way....
lately as far as music goes, one of my homey's wants to branch off into our own deal
and I was like cool....I mean...it's not like I'M DOING ANYTHING...idiot...lulz
either way sometime next month he wants to meet up with a producer charging 20 a hour
which sounds good, but at the same time I DON'T KNOW WHO THE FUCK THAT GUY IS
but it don't matter....0_0 I'm all over with this....*ahem*

well this is just a moment maybe I'll add more...and get more indepth with what I talked about already
or maybe I'll just rant in here....Plex gave me the ok....so ok..lulz

(I KNOW IT'S LONG DICKS....PAUSE.....I HAVE A LOT ON MY MIND.....PAUSE)

-- Wed Aug 25, 2010 4:33 pm --

On another note I have toyed with the notion I might be crazy
I don't know if it's just the mindstate of having so many thoughts
or maybe it's something else? strange world we live in though...
then again...look at my avy!?!??!?! look at my sig...
either way...I feel the need to eat...but I haven't as much as I should
I heard starving yourself during the day is bad...and eating at night
I did not know that...either way...just another random thought