From Dusk Til Dawn

[Kuhlerblynd]

Aheemmm...

Off of work, feet to dirt, treading the path to my castle/
Inside removing the shirt, feeling the jerks, hearing the laugh of assholes//
What do I do now? This life will I lose now? Because I can't stay away/
Putting the gas down, pulling the cash out, time to meet the flames today//

Its a battle, everytime Murk hits the turf around my place of residence/
Cuz these drugs and bars are ready to hurt and scar, leaving space irrelavent/
I cant seem to compete with these streets, so I don't sleep I just pop pills/
Stay wide awake, cuz this life today leaves me without motivation, not-thrilled/
Cant get anything right, cant progress in my life, so I fall back to the gutters/
Brushing my teeth now, only time I've been proud is when I got that plague from my mother/
Fucker, I am, Son of Sam doesn't have more souls than my chrome of let downs/
I write and write, fight this knife, hide the light... wishing my life would be all set now/
Instead I continue to follow this lifestyle thats hollow, in search of the joy never known/
Feeling under the gun, not knowing the fun, or experience that could've been gained from toys never owned/

So am I true to myself, for admitting this Hell, and just living thru every minute?/
Or is it time to stand up? Yet how do I man up, when no one cares except the Guiness?/
And if someone did, how could I know it was true, after all the lies and bullshit I've been thru?/
Would you swallow the pints, then get on with your lives, if instead all this had been you?/
I mean, damn, I know I can, lead my life to expand, to something more than this shit/
A mutt dropped off at my door step, is it four yet?, I deserve much more than this bitch/

So I did it again, my self conspired friend, and made it to the daylight of the dawn/
Thought I hid in my house, and sat on my couch, all night, its like that stagefreight is gone/
A new day, yes, time to take a step, and see if this route is better than the last, shit/
Cuz I know, if I continue down the old road, then Murk's going to end up dead or in a casket/
Here's my oath, to positively push the right driection for self in the future/
Cause that makes sense, but talk is cheap, and I dont want to be a complete loser/
Im not going to snap my neck looking back on the facts of a life which is mine/
My goals are ahead, and my eyes are instead, focused at the end, on the finish line/

Hope this was enjoyed and can be related to... Dropped this somewhere else and just wondered how many peeps might be interested in reading it here.