A Fathers Choice.....

[Enlightend]

one of my deepest drops ever...

i sit back in this chair, hands up grabbing my hair
lasting despair sound of the life support i have in my ears
my son in the bed beside me comatose tubes in his chest and iv's
the day Ur mom said she was pregnant i thought how blessed can i be
but now I'm sitting waiting hoping for something too change and
all tho the doctors say Ur brain dead I'm gonna have this conversation

i remember..
when u was born, twins premature but u fought threw
i almost lost you for 4 months i slept at that hospital
during birth Ur mother died, i went numb inside cus among other trials
only one of my kids survived, so am i selfish i want my son alive
but life u where never dealt one, my angel going threw hell cause
when u were born Ur heart and Ur brain wernt fully developed
its been three years of your tears, struggles and pain
i cant understand your hurt, but it feels i suffer the same
u went thru it all unable to talk, walk, or maybe even understand
you played Ur cards but against death never had the upper hand
now the seizures every ten minutes have left you barely living
and i fear ur slipping cus signs of hope ur scarcely giving

so now im presented a choice that no man should ever have
i wish i had my better half im forced to play god here instead of dad
but my decision is distant, asking help but no ones giving me wisdom
crying god listen i need you but now I'm doubting him in existence
no.... i have to face it alone this is a decision i must make on my own
so i told my family that this time i wouldn't be taking him home
and it rained hard for hours as i cried holding my son as he died
and when he finally passed the most extravagant colors filled the sky
and as i walked out the door, looking up was a crowed of 11 or more
these people must not have seen innocence entering heaven before

this was posted by me in late 2006 during a topical tourney and has since been copy written by me... all rights reserved.... so don't bite... it isn't just wrong.... ITS ILLEGAL

[Kause mc]

Wow. This was honestly the best read i have read on this site. Or anywhere else. Really diggin this man. Props aint enough for this

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[Tha Dark Prince]

This was good, really deep and vivid in imagery, you seem to have an expertise in these kinda things, the rhythm started of like fast then went down as I read, it felt like u were rappin at first to be honest, or maybe it's just me, the last few lines were just amazingly creative and the ending was what made this extremely solid, imo.

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[KING RUM12]

U already know

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[Enlightend]

thanks for the feed... got this moved to written rhymes so it doesn't get slept on... so keep it coming lol

[MonuMental]

No flaws, no corrections needed. A dope piece full of emotion and meaning. Pain, frustration, anger at the powers that be. Excellent drop. Enough said.

[EcKsTaSy]

that's it man---- that's what makes us human, free will...ups and downs...damn...great drop bro

[M33Kish]

this isa really deep dope and ill ass piece. alota emotion is packed in this and you were able to translate it for us really good... bravo

[Loon E Lou]

daaaaaamn man. this was pretty amazing. for a topical, this shit is pretty real man. hit me pretty good cus i have a daughter so i could only imagine what that would feel like. like kause mentioned, this might be one of the best drops ive read on here. you kept shit real, without over doin it on the vocab or stretching the lines. great flow dawg. this is heavy as hell

[Defiance]

yeah man, feeling this piece.. the weight of life and death and struggle.. very well thought out and very well executed.. if this is a true story you got my best man.. keep it up

[complexity]

Absolutely tragic.

A must read for anyone who joins the site.

I can't add much more.

[Black-Heart]

Wonderful drop man, best piece of poetry I've ever read honestly - I felt this..pictured it ..lol kinda felt like it was me...once again, this was nice bro - keep on rytn

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[probablyTreed]

on spot of course!

[Kuhlerblynd]

Wow, a really deep piece. Imagery and emotion just flowed perfectly. Great use of multi's, never forcing anything. Really well put together, and definitely one of the best pieces put together of the year on this site so far. I couldnt imagine how hard this was for you to write when you wrote it, but I can definitely relate to the therapy it sometimes can provide. A great read. Props.

[Ryth]

Don't know if I can offer any real feed on this, but I at least want to give you props! Keep it up man.