Lost Me

[b215crazy]

You’ve won.. i quit

no pain relievers, i’ma relive these feelings through the speakers
your in everything i write, your the reason i can’t sleep soundly at night
when its way past midnight and i get hype
exercising my right.. these weights sometimes feel like
I’m lifting the earth in spite
everything I’ve gain i lose
coming at the world like i got something to prove
he’s on the loose, his heads lost to many screws
but don’t play me for no fool
cause i dropped outta high school and broke rules
ain’t looking for a easy route, cause if you know my roots it shows
struggled all my damn life its just how the story goes
no glory traveled so many roads
chapters changing like episodes
so here it goes, so windy can’t feel the cold
am i permentally frozen, will i feel your touch again who knows
just like a rose, the pedals dry
aint saying the loved died, but I’m burring the picture away in my mind
you will always be the love of my life, no lies
but I’ve tried behind these blue eyes so hard to change my bad parts for you
truth speaking always willing to bleed for you
that chance i blew, lonely and blue, that’s my point of view
you got goals, stick to, don’t let these pricks trip you
get that mentally back be a pitbull
the cups half full, you gonna fill it up! or drink it thru
Taurus I’m a bull, so quit the shit
you know my history, my dad wrote the script


you weren’t just some girl
didn’t enter the relationship with plans of making you my world
but it happened and i became so attached and loved every part of you
unconditionally too, was willing to always stand by you
every encounter no matter what we went through
and don’t take my snapping as me walking out
i was wrong wish those words never came out my mouth
yeah i fell but can’t change that now,
can only hope some how
that i can burst these black clouds
believe in myself and never back down
cause life’s like an hour glass
one set of footprints in the sand
and they ain’t gods steps there of this man
ain’t cracking these nuts are brass bands
cupping a warrior with a battle plan
cause love can take the strong and produce the weak
then induce a freak, introduce crazy b
context of use, this manual you can’t read
I’m shifting gears, no excuse point the blame to me
you changed me, from substance abuse cause life wasn’t being friendly
life was my enemy, deuces, made peace, you where the only friend I’d need
beauty and the beast, you gave this prince air to breath
its rare but I’m declaring defeat
lost you, saying goodbye and I’ll see you in my sleep
close my eyes, still can’t catch a break

I still remember your beautiful eyes,
the way you wore your hair to the right side
the way you looked at me when i was reading and smiled
memories of you just won’t fade
i try to push them away every single day
and every single way they rise inside my mind when i see one single thing
a movie! a Song! A dream!
whatever it is, its a disease
can’t shake its hold on me
how many times do i have to say never felt this way
loved other girls, but they could -never -be -the -one
or they’ll never -see -the -way -i - truly loved
your all i want, your all i need
I’m trying to so hard to get my life back in order for me
so maybe you’ll see, that I’ve changed
i feel like I’m on repeat
i just miss you so much need to speak
damn you sparked the fire in me, feel this chest as it beats
its a shame cause we barely talk
maybe like once or twice a month
maybe cause we’re both holding our tongues
whatever it is, i don’t know, I’m holding myself back
starring out the window, watching the days go
maybe your really happy with him if so
i won’t bother you and you can just forget me and this song
cause your good at not giving a fuck
still don’t know if the love is gone
but you lost me, can only wait for so long

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[Immortal Jav]

a long read man. its not that basic so thats good
flows good my man

[b215crazy]

thank you for your response, this song i wrote means alot to me.

i only wish my skill level was high enough to actually flow this out-loud to yous.