this direction

[T cross]

yeah...
ever since 11 i been tryin to stand up on measurin'
my own height, but sometimes i think it's never worth levelin
with the lies i was told but these rhymes keep on peddlin
over the cries and the questions of why i keep stressin
about the stride of your mission to succeed in a different vision
it's nice to know you tried, but it was never enough..so fuck 'em
if you really cared, you woulda shared love rather than just bluffin
and fuckin cussin to grab u a fuckin beer, tellin me i was nothin
ur the reason my balls're gettin cupped and, you can.. suck 'em
till their swollen and blue cuz i'm glad i never knew you.
cuz everything we had was thrown out the window since day two
and never fell into place like jumpin out a plane with a parachute.

(i started writing this into my notebook, but really wasn't sure if it was going in the right direction. i mean, i'd like to get a little feed on what i have so far, i just don't know if i'm well motivated to keep this piece going. kinda has me in a dark place right now. whachu think thus far? i know it's not much right now.)