I just wallowed in my sorrow, like drunks do when bottles end up hollow
Needing a new road in life to follow, before my very being is swallowed by tomorrow
Or Satan seeks my spirit to borrow, perhaps just rips my soul out instead
For the sins I had committed, spiritually I know now I'm dead
I'll hold out for breaths, fresh, but it would be too much to wait on
The tears and blood complacent, but the above would end in suffocation
Those who once loved replaced it, and left me in the yard to starve and suffer
Like those bars are rubber, I'm supposed to bounce back as some heartless fucker?
What about my mother? Well, what about her? Did I ever doubt her?
Did I think when the clouds burst even a hint of the rain would surround her?
I bet disappointment pounds her, I didn't know it was easy to turn your back
It's something I never learned, in fact, 'cause I'd rather burn to ash
Sense of self turned to black, knowledge of my existence, non-existent
Contact with family was extinct, though I sent more than cards at Christmas
Every note armed with wishes, hopes of safety and messages of love
After many months, I'll quickly confess, the stress tests were enough
I needed blessings from above, strength and passion to progress
Not knowing where it would take me, I couldn't imagine it just yet
Like a Dragon I gotta catch, it's fucking hot where the furnace at
My past, had to murder that, then one day an older cat said he heard my tracks
To Heaven, and "Life's learning curve is black, asphalt on a straight road
See the turns? We make those, as if we found some type of escape hole
But we'd never escape whole, we'd be slow to slice, and I know the knife
It's time for you to explode inside, pick up the pieces, and walk the road of life"
That night, I slept on his words... The next day, I discovered the wisdom they possessed...
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