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I wake to ravings, echoes, cold ghosts of broken statements,
Memories vacant, out the window lies a body on the pavement,
The form is naked and twisted to breaking in different places,
My love is taken, you're not in our bed, such a displacement,
I feel complacent, but the picture comes back as I erase it,
Your hands are shaking, you're dying, visions beyond you faking,
I shake my head clear, stand up, and head for the door,
And in the hall I find our children lying dead in the floor,
Begging the Lord to stifle feeling, leave me numb at the core,
Dredging my dread up as I'm reeling, what else is in store,
I grope my way down the stairs, take this venture outside,
But I'm surprised, there's our neighbor, Ted, minus his eyes,
Fear to confide, Should I bide this time, forget who has died,
Or go and spy the fair form now lying broken on it's side,
Swallow what pride, did I not rise as all my people said bye,
I walk in sync with my thoughts, and that's one step at a time,
Partially blind by the light on the street, next to a sign,
Lovers Lane and my disdain, intersecting our lives,
But now my mind goes numb and all the thoughts stop cold,
Stricken dumb by the horror finally down to unfold,
My life, love, and wife, punctured skin from broken bones,
Still steaming in the night, I feel I'm robbed of all goals,
I count the steps that it takes to trace my way to the lawn,
Puke and go on until I reach the light that spills from beyond,
Go through the door and in the hall, where I sit by the phone,
And see myself in the mirror, surprised at what I have on,
A white tee tells the tail as my legs quiver and fail,
And my knees catch the warmth of all the fear I expelled,
Blood stains me thoroughly from my head to my toes,
I was the last thing they saw, and in my madness I chose,
To let them know that I'd send them into their final throes,
Reflect woes, if hell is certain it's where I'll go I suppose,
In death I know maybe I'll see them and get to apologize,
Or kill them over again with my love in their after lives.