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A short song that I wrote expressing thoughts and feelings towards the loss of my cousin Michael Cruz who we lost earlier this week on 12-16-10 ...he'll forever be in my heart and mind, as well as his son Michael Cruz Jr. May they fly with angels...until we meet again.

Here's the news article on what happened.
http://abclocal.go.com/wls/story?sectio ... id=7769423

...my cousin's son (Mike Jr.) died that same night of smoke poisoning due to the fire. The past 6 weeks my cousin himself has been battling for his life but unfortunately lost ground this week on the 16th. He was 33yrs old...his son was 3yrs.
If I could push 'em back, I'm shoving hands of time..
Defy the laws of physics, to find a peace of mind..
I'd take it anywhere in this world for my cousin Mike..
Even back to the future, call me "Marty McFlyyy"
Remember when we first met at that party they had for Cree..
I gave you my CD, you said you heard of me..
Who'd thought we were cousins, who'd of thought we were blood..
Since then we shared a bond that nobody had, I tell you whattt..
You told me you believed in me when people seldom do..
And now God's taken you from me, I'm feelin confused..
I kind of envisioned you and I blowin up together..
Flossin twin Lamborghini's, wit the genuine leather..
So when I close my eyes, I can hear it now..
Baby we BUZZIN CUZZINS, it's Pilsen in yo Mouf'..
And when I quote you on it, know I'ma say it loud..
So your memory lives forever and I do you proud..
Now I'm not blasphemous, No that ain't my intention..
But there's a "Massacre" that awaits for me up in heaven..
Please Lord give me a sign that your hearing my prayer..
So that when I'm alone, I'm not just standing there..
I can speak for my stable, Anger Manij the label..
BUENO my given name, cousin Mike for my angel..
Now I can't speak for everyone when addressing the issue..
But I gotta feelin that the South side's gonna miss you..
So many tears have fallen, so many hearts are broken..
So many words to say, but none are hardly spoken..
This song's simply a letter, a letter just for you..
No stamp on the envelope, address it Michael Cruz.
I'm sure it'll get to you, no doubt in my mind at all..
If I could ring a phone in heaven off the hook, I'd make long distance calls..
You were more than a cousin, more like an older brother..
4 years ago I was fortunate that we found eachother..
It's impossible to make up for all the lost time..
But we tried, you told me secrets and I told you mine..
And now I hurt for you, as well as baby Mike..
Can't help but to feel like y'all were taken before your time..
Is there a bigger picture, or some holy design..
That I'm not seeing clearly, let me open my eyes..
I wrote this in an hour, barely tryin at all..
All these emotions are crashin down like a waterfall..
And some of what I say, comes off kinda cliché..
But our hearts beat the same, for better words to say..
As we live for today, I'ma tell you this..
Mike undoubtably loved his girl and each one of his kids..
Now if I could say I've learned anything up outta life..
It's that NAS had it right...All you need is one MIKE.

yeah man i checked this out on youtube earlier, this track is dope man i could sense you really had emotional bonds with him and it shows in this track maybe the vocals need to come up a lil bit on the track but otherwise this is a very solid drop man i'm a be bumpin this shit for you and in memory of him no doubt about it RIP man, i'm sure he'll never be forgotten

Very emotional. The perfect beat. I gotta give this a 10/10. As far as the track goes...the vocals, delivery, everything was dope as hell. This is a great way to express how u feel in a time of sadness, just putting out whatever is in ur heart, especially if u didn't get to say goodbye. Sorry for ur loss man.

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Yeah, theres nothing bad to be said about this at all. Everything was pretty much on point. It can be hard to make tracks like this, from my personal experience, because it seems like you can never really say everything that you feel for that person, but you did a good job portraying how close the two of you were and everything. I just recently lost a close friend of mine, and I hope your cousins family and friends get through the grief the best way possible. One.

man...

u already know what i said on Facebook... and this song just lives up to the lives lost in that terrible tragedy... it's a shame it had to happen like that... two young lives lost like that... again bro this song just lives up their memories homie... you could feel the emotion that you poured into this track... my prayers and condolences go out to the family's devastated by this...

Great song.

Spoken from the heart.

You really can't say much more than that.

Yeah man, no flaws in here.. you threw your emotions and feelings on the paper then gave it to use through the mic.. its nice man.. great job

I Agree. You Poured Deep Into This. It Isn't Easy Losing Someone Close, And I'm Sure You Probably Had Intense Moments Recording This. . .But You Did Good. An Honorable Track, One I Can Say I Felt Your Pain Listening To. Heartfelt Music Is Always The Best, And I Can Say That You Did It Justice. This Is Probably My Favorite Song I've Heard In My Time Being On Illest. Good Delivery, Good Quality. I Really Don't See Much For Improvement On This. My Condolences And Best Wishes To You And Yours. Stay Strong And Keep Your Head Up, He's Watching Over You From Above.