Cell Bars
Posted: Mon Sep 15, 2008 10:24 am
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Cell Bars
............
I sit in alone in this Cell....
Head goin' crazy, with thoughts of my baby
Been damn near 10 years… n' these walls startin' to faze me
Maybe I died, cause this is hell, the room that im in
Told not to feel the grey, but my souls bein' consumed from within'
I miss the colour of freedom, what the others are feeling
To experience it again, I'd stop another brother from breathin'
Cause this damp monotony is what really covers the heathen's
Fuck the bar's n' the blocks, the colours smother my being
Now im corruptin' n' seethin', plottin' an escape, out
Break out, I know the plumbin' n' heatin' so I know my escape route
Never face doubt, now my hearts pumpin n' beatin'
As I think back on my life.. my arrest.. when I was cuffed and deceiven
Or my childhood in church, where I said enough with the preachin'
Cause every good thought I ever had, seemed to be coupled with evil....
..Feelin' fucked up this evenin', cant keep the tears from rollin'
Memories or sellin' weed, seen a couple felonies…. after years of holdin'
Night comin' n' fears approachin', would they find the hole in the plaster?
As they patrollin' n' flashin', askin', I envisage foldin' these bastards
Their widows holdin' their ashes or leave em' mouldin' in caskets
But I don't want this scheme, blown in disaster…
Cause all my life I been too proud… to have it closin' with that shit….
................
I awoke from my dream n' im screamin'
Sometimes the worst part of a havin' nightmare.. is realising your better off sleepin'
I pictured a time where I was running from darkness..
Now im back to my life… where all that's coming is darkness
I cry routinely.. behind this exterior, all im feelin's inferior
Seriously feelin' lost, cause all im seein' aint clear enough
Each thought soundin' the same, sick n' poundin' my brain
How can I live?… when every emotion n' picture is drowned out with shame
This reality is an analogy for a candle in the wind
I feel my light shakin', nearly brakin', can my life withstand another ten?
…
Spiritually…nothing appealed to me ...
Cause every chapter I read, didn't become what it seemed to be..
But in a revenge stabbin'…near dead.. it was than that I saw the light..
So after that brawl n' fight.. I seen vision's of wrong and right..
Thought it as all my own doing, but the prince of darkness is strong..
Realised God made everything… n' my heart.. so how could it be wrong..
Knew then I was a good person.. but had much less than the average dude..
I felt like a builder who wanted the same house, but only had half the tools..
Still I cast away the savage fools.. would pray.. no longer stand n' look..
So with Faith and patience I managed to, handle my abandoned views...
................
My Girl was the light of my life, she brightened my sight
never felt down in the relationship, hell I even liked when we'd fight
but she'd been taken away, my whole world felt cloaked' n' shaded
As I sit, ready to leave I feel broke n' faded… “Shit, I hope I make itâ€
Cell Bars
............
I sit in alone in this Cell....
Head goin' crazy, with thoughts of my baby
Been damn near 10 years… n' these walls startin' to faze me
Maybe I died, cause this is hell, the room that im in
Told not to feel the grey, but my souls bein' consumed from within'
I miss the colour of freedom, what the others are feeling
To experience it again, I'd stop another brother from breathin'
Cause this damp monotony is what really covers the heathen's
Fuck the bar's n' the blocks, the colours smother my being
Now im corruptin' n' seethin', plottin' an escape, out
Break out, I know the plumbin' n' heatin' so I know my escape route
Never face doubt, now my hearts pumpin n' beatin'
As I think back on my life.. my arrest.. when I was cuffed and deceiven
Or my childhood in church, where I said enough with the preachin'
Cause every good thought I ever had, seemed to be coupled with evil....
..Feelin' fucked up this evenin', cant keep the tears from rollin'
Memories or sellin' weed, seen a couple felonies…. after years of holdin'
Night comin' n' fears approachin', would they find the hole in the plaster?
As they patrollin' n' flashin', askin', I envisage foldin' these bastards
Their widows holdin' their ashes or leave em' mouldin' in caskets
But I don't want this scheme, blown in disaster…
Cause all my life I been too proud… to have it closin' with that shit….
................
I awoke from my dream n' im screamin'
Sometimes the worst part of a havin' nightmare.. is realising your better off sleepin'
I pictured a time where I was running from darkness..
Now im back to my life… where all that's coming is darkness
I cry routinely.. behind this exterior, all im feelin's inferior
Seriously feelin' lost, cause all im seein' aint clear enough
Each thought soundin' the same, sick n' poundin' my brain
How can I live?… when every emotion n' picture is drowned out with shame
This reality is an analogy for a candle in the wind
I feel my light shakin', nearly brakin', can my life withstand another ten?
…
Spiritually…nothing appealed to me ...
Cause every chapter I read, didn't become what it seemed to be..
But in a revenge stabbin'…near dead.. it was than that I saw the light..
So after that brawl n' fight.. I seen vision's of wrong and right..
Thought it as all my own doing, but the prince of darkness is strong..
Realised God made everything… n' my heart.. so how could it be wrong..
Knew then I was a good person.. but had much less than the average dude..
I felt like a builder who wanted the same house, but only had half the tools..
Still I cast away the savage fools.. would pray.. no longer stand n' look..
So with Faith and patience I managed to, handle my abandoned views...
................
My Girl was the light of my life, she brightened my sight
never felt down in the relationship, hell I even liked when we'd fight
but she'd been taken away, my whole world felt cloaked' n' shaded
As I sit, ready to leave I feel broke n' faded… “Shit, I hope I make itâ€