lost innocence

[DaPrince]

When I was a child, I was just 8 years old,
I had so much potential and my heart wasn't cold
Filled with Smiles and laughs, I was naive and innocent,
corrupted by a breach of trust with fraudulent intent
childhood stolen from me, bliss detrimentally affected
spiraled into years of feeling nothing but rejected
so disconnected i searched for an answer
i questioned no stranger and i leapt into danger
at a critical moment, a turn decided my life
and where i should have went left, instead i turned right
and despite the number of invites i received every night
i grew even more withdrawn until delight turned to spite
solitarily i wandered, chasing a lost innocence
found nothing to replace it except tormented resentment
memory after memory only worsened the situation
dangling happiness in front of my face like a presentation
temporary solutions, sampled distributions
using herbology as a way to clear confusion
delusions of using plants as a financial institution
not knowing bankruptcy was the only conclusion
what little i had, i lost in that instant
and from then on i only listened to my intelligence
exiled emotions, eliminated empathy
amended my attitude and added apathy
indifference cultivated, winter procreated
and inside of my soul left snow flakes for me to raise
hopelessly defeated, corrosively misleaded
throwing in the towel, mission failed, uncompleted
insecurities plague me like locusts in egypt
paralyzing fear leaves me feeling paraplegic
you can hope for the best, but you should expect the worse
life takes away your joy and you don't get reimbursed
seperated from others, from life i've been disjointed
if you don't have expectations you'll never be disappointed