Home Sick

[The Gonz]

In this land of sand and death, it's my oasis/
The day I come home and see their smiling faces/
Miles away from anything that resembles home/
Thousands beside me but I feel like I was sent alone/
So misleading, goodbyes come so close to grieving/
So many tears, my kids too young to know the meaning/
They were told I'm leaving, and it's only been 4 days/
And my kids are still waiting for me to come through the doorway/
Of course they will learn the truth and start to feel it/
We'll grow apart and that's the hardest part to deal with/
It darkens spirits and leaves you with an empty chest/
My son's gonna be walking and I'm gonna miss every step/
Yet regret and doubt are two of the furthest thoughts/
Even though there's that chance I could get hurt or lost/
It's worth the cost, especially with loved ones beside you/
Shit, I'm the soldier and they have more pride than I do/

It's day 6 but it feels like it's been weeks longer/
I know they miss me but in a way they seem stronger/
My dreams wander, thinkin of how much I miss em/
Wondering how they sleep without daddy to tuck and kiss em/
Fuck the system, I'm kidding but still torn in ways/
Wish I could crawl in bed and feel my wife's warm embrace/
Just a little kiss and squeeze, maybe a frisky tease/
I wanna be close but the Army tries to distance me/
Another 60 weeks to replace those tears with laughter/
It's hard to console when you know they fear disaster/
Another year of chapters in this twisted book of life/
Staring at my kid's pictures, amazed how much we look alike/
Wish I could book a flight even if I was home a minute/
Learn how to freeze time so the moment won't deminish/
Just hope to finish the hardship as it approaches/
Just another soldier, husband and dad feelin homesick/

[Lotus]

flawless man. its clear that this came straight from the heart, and as usual you got an impeccable rhyme scheme that serves as a great conduit for expressin the depth of wat u got to say. good luck in the army

[The Gonz]

Appreciate the feed, man. This was definitely from the heart. I kinda strayed from using a ton of multies but still somehow ended up using em anyways lol. Expect a lot of deep verses in the future, along with some extremely sick experimentals too. And once I do get settled in Iraq, who knows, maybe I can rig up some audio.

[Haz]

Shit Was Sick .. wow ...
LOVED the First Verse Man .. I Fuckin Loved It ..

In this land of sand and death, it's my oasis/
The day I come home and see their smiling faces/
Miles away from anything that resembles home/
Thousands beside me but I feel like I was sent alone/

SO MUCH SUBSTANCE...


My son's gonna be walking and I'm gonna miss every step/
Yet regret and doubt are two of the furthest thoughts/
Even though there's that chance I could get hurt or lost/
It's worth the cost, especially with loved ones beside you/
Shit, I'm the soldier and they have more pride than I do/


woooow @ That Every step Part ... This shit is Your Life .. It's Sooo Raw..

You My Friend R a M-C ..



Fuck the system, I'm playin but still torn in ways/
Wish I could crawl in bed and feel my wife's warm embrace/
Just a little kiss and squeeze, maybe a frisky tease/
I wanna be close but the Army tries to distance me/
Another 60 weeks to replace those tears with laughter/
It's hard to console when you know they fear disaster/

Loved This Rucka... Man .. The Frisky Tease .. Warm Embrace..
U Give Imagery Like a Good Poet .. I Love it ..

We're Gettin a Collab Goin .. Sick One 2 ..


9/10 .. Could Of Hit Me With One More Verse Lol
I'm Playin I Dont Rate Stuff ..
This Shit was Soooo Dope Though.. So Much Feelin , Emotion..

U Made Me Feel Your Pain And That's What An M-C is suppose 2 Do ..


Good Job ..

[SubstanZ]

ayo ruckus, that was some of the deepest shit ive ever read...mad props n mad respect. like eminem said u spilled ur heart thru tha pen rite thare. good luck in the army n stay safe if u hav ta go to the sandbox. i also gotta say i give u mad respect for writin sumtin thats real. again yo mad props for that. n by the way, i aint see nothin wrong with either verse, they was both jus mad ill. im a newb here so if u get a chance maby u cood give me sum feed back on the next verse i drop id apreciate it alot.

[Lotus]

hell yeah ruckus get that money from the army n do somethin wit ya talent. i could definitely see u puttin out some REAL hot shit mad ppl would be feelin. have u made any audios? for real im anxious to see how u come on the mic

[Quix]

It's day 6 but it feels like it's been weeks longer/
I know they miss me but in a way they seem stronger/
My dreams wander, thinkin of how much I miss em/
Wondering how they sleep without daddy to tuck and kiss em/
Fuck the system, I'm kidding but still torn in ways/
Wish I could crawl in bed and feel my wife's warm embrace/
Just a little kiss and squeeze, maybe a frisky tease/
I wanna be close but the Army tries to distance me/
Another 60 weeks to replace those tears with laughter/
It's hard to console when you know they fear disaster/
Another year of chapters in this twisted book of life/
Staring at my kid's pictures, amazed how much we look alike/
Wish I could book a flight even if I was home a minute/
Learn how to freeze time so the moment won't deminish/
Just hope to finish the hardship as it approaches/
Just another soldier, husband and dad feelin homesick




this came heelllla nice ^^^ Felt this hommie!!!! keep at it!

[TreTru]

In this land of sand and death, it's my oasis/
The day I come home and see their smiling faces/
Miles away from anything that resembles home/
Thousands beside me but I feel like I was sent alone/
So misleading, goodbyes come so close to grieving/
So many tears, my kids too young to know the meaning/
They were told I'm leaving, and it's only been 4 days/
And my kids are still waiting for me to come through the doorway/
Of course they will learn the truth and start to feel it/
We'll grow apart and that's the hardest part to deal with/
It darkens spirits and leaves you with an empty chest/
My son's gonna be walking and I'm gonna miss every step/
Yet regret and doubt are two of the furthest thoughts/
Even though there's that chance I could get hurt or lost/
It's worth the cost, especially with loved ones beside you/
Shit, I'm the soldier and they have more pride than I do/

It's day 6 but it feels like it's been weeks longer/
I know they miss me but in a way they seem stronger/
My dreams wander, thinkin of how much I miss em/
Wondering how they sleep without daddy to tuck and kiss em/
Fuck the system, I'm kidding but still torn in ways/
Wish I could crawl in bed and feel my wife's warm embrace/
Just a little kiss and squeeze, maybe a frisky tease/
I wanna be close but the Army tries to distance me/
Another 60 weeks to replace those tears with laughter/
It's hard to console when you know they fear disaster/
Another year of chapters in this twisted book of life/
Staring at my kid's pictures, amazed how much we look alike/
Wish I could book a flight even if I was home a minute/
Learn how to freeze time so the moment won't deminish/
Just hope to finish the hardship as it approaches/
Just another soldier, husband and dad feelin homesick/

^^^these were the only lines i liked the rest sucked...hahaha

seriously dude..this shyt was str8 like you had your eyes closed
and all the things that mattered to you most came spilling out..
techinically speaking...the rhymescheme was heinously ill..
but the piece had so much depth emotion.i could relate to
every damn thing you said..your freakin dope dude...

[The Gonz]

damn, appreciate the feed yall. glad you can relate to it and understand what's going on.

[Glamtrash]

I absolutely love your writing style and word usage. Your story has particular meaning to me right now as a good friend of mine just left some guy from the army, mainly because he was crazy lol. But my main concern for her when they first got together was how it was going to be when he went away.

Again, your story-telling capabilities are great. Keep 'em comin.

[K.O.]

this is real hip-hop from the soul yall. I FELT this piece for you. if half the cats had as much heart and emotion as you....mannnnn. the world would be a bearable place to live in. lol
there is nothing to say about your lyrics megatively because they so vividly depict your life and for that reason alone... you staying true to yourself just makes this a 10. end transmition.

[The Gonz]

i is a mc

[complexity]

Old school classic, hmmm

I don't know, I thought this was a perfect story.

"Just a little kiss and squeeze, maybe a frisky tease/
I wanna be close but the Army tries to distance me/
Another 60 weeks to replace those tears with laughter/
It's hard to console when you know they fear disaster/
Another year of chapters in this twisted book of life/
Staring at my kid's pictures, amazed how much we look alike/"

I'm sure that a lot of military people could actually tell this story without the rhymes. I feel as if something is missing from making this a classic drop. I just can't identify it, maybe its the words being spoken, who knows.

Thanks for serving the country.

[Cee4]

one of the best drops of the year. i prefered this to the other one i read. the whole thing is quotable. lots of emotion and i dont need to mention the flow. all your shit would fit audio perfectly. not going to bother quoting anything as the whole verse was dope

[- Mutual -]

man this was dope the flow was great didnt fall off
the multies were good nice shyt with the emotion
i was really feelin this like one of the best peices i've ever read
sadlly none of my peices are on that list lol
this was good shyt written well alotta thought put into it
dope shyt Ruck
keep'em comin